歌曲簡介

發行時間： 2020 年

作詞/作曲：Jadon Converse& Damien/Beats By Con

演出者：Damien & Ashley Cherrae 

收錄專輯：Pain to Poetry

[Chorus]

It feels so very strange

它好奇怪

That it could be this way

應該是要這樣的

Now I'm so afraid

現在我好害怕

Why you want to stay?

你為甚麼想留下來

Did you ever love me

你曾經有愛過我嗎

The way that I loved you?

就像是我愛你的那樣

This negativity

這麼消極的話

Keeps me feeling blue (Look)

會讓我心情很憂鬱的

[Verse 1]

Is it okay to feel like running away for days 'til somebody wanna say something? Huh

這樣好嗎? 就像是逃跑了好幾天直到想要對她說點甚麼

Is it ok to feel shitty and overwhelmed by everything and anything coming?

這樣好嗎? 就像是對即將到來的事情感到糟糕和不知所措

Is it okay to feel like I'm not quite okay? I been feeling pain, make it go away, sleep is my escape

這樣好嗎?在我不舒服，疼痛的時候，用睡覺來逃避

Dreamin' it up to wake up and find I really mean nothing

但從夢境醒來後發現我甚麼都不是

I made the assumption that monsters ain't under my bed and it took me a minute to realize they're in my head 

我假設怪物並不是在我的床下而且再我思考後發現其實是在我的腦裡

And they'rе giving me panic attacks and anxiety

並給我驚恐和焦慮

I'm seeing red

我看見了鮮血

I'm rеally just fed up it feels like I'm living in Hell

我真的受夠了身處在地獄般的感覺

And I'm walking around like I'm dead cuz my face is just lifeless

然後像行屍走肉般地在繞著床走而且我的臉毫無生氣

I'm fighting for everyone never will 

我會為所有人而戰

I ever be fought for in the end 

但我不會為最後而戰

I need a little bit of happiness why am I so inadequate? 

我需要一點幸福但我為甚麼這麼的不滿足

Demons I'm always battling, damn

我一直和惡魔戰鬥

They always be attacking shit and I ain't really havin' it, I'm always on my saddest shit, damn

他們一直攻擊我，我一直不被接受，我永遠在悲傷之中

I'm a motherfucking addict, I don't mean to be dramatic, no one ever really had to give a damn

我不誇張，我是個該死的癮君子，沒有人真的在乎過我

The love that they be giving me a scam, goddamn, come and watch me pop another fucking Xan, shit

她們騙了我的愛情，該死，看我來爆出另一個他媽的Xan

[Chorus]

It feels so very strange

它好奇怪

That it could be this way

應該是要這樣的

Now I'm so afraid

現在我好害怕

Why you want to stay?

你為甚麼想留下來

Did you ever love me

你曾經有愛過我嗎

The way that I loved you?

就像是我愛你的那樣

This negativity

這麼消極的話

Keeps me feeling blue (Look)

會讓我心情很憂鬱的

[Verse 2]

I feel so blue, I always lose

我好憂鬱，我一直輸

I be steady trippin', gotta tie my shoes

我靠酒醉來穩定自己，我繫了鞋帶

When I need you, you respond so slow

幫我需要你，你很久才回應

When you need me, I'm in the call like proto

當你需要我，我像原子一樣快地回應你

I don't like to talk because I'm anti-social

我不喜歡講話因為我有反社會人格

You already know, though, zero friends in total

你已經知道了，雖然我總共0個朋友

I don't even smile in the motherfucking photos

我甚至在照片裡都沒有笑過

That I post on the 'Gram 'cause I don't give a damn about shit now

甚至沒有人在乎我把他潑到Ins上面

I can fucking disappear and everybody lit now

我可以他媽的消失然後大家準備要大玩一波

I'ma sit down, take a hit now

握遭受打擊並坐了下來

Every now and then, I take a mother fucking sip now

時不時地啜泣

Grrt, pow, bumpin' Lil Tjay註1

Crying in the club on my goddamn b-day

在該死的生日派對上哭泣

Drive too fast on the goddamn freeway

在該死的高速公路上開得太快

Heart is up for sale, so I put it on eBay

來賣我的心，所以我放在eBay上

He say, she say, they all fucking monsters

他說，她說，大家都是她媽的怪物

They say they your friends, but they always imposters

但大家都冒充著說是你的朋友

The only way that I'ma prosper is with zero friends on my roster

唯一會讓我幸福的方法就是我的名冊裡面沒有朋友

Someone call the doctor, my flow's too sick, I'm off-topic

有人叫了醫生，我的風格太潮，我是非主流

Sucker for pain, but I got logic註2

When fake people wanna hop on my dick

當虛假的人想要和你結交朋友

And they stab my back and they talk they shit

然後他們暗算我，酸我

And they talk they crap I just take they hits, damn

他們說我胡說八道我只是接受他們的意見

[Chorus]

It feels so very strange

它好奇怪

That it could be this way

應該是要這樣的

Now I'm so afraid

現在我好害怕

Why you want to stay?

你為甚麼想留下來

Did you ever love me

你曾經有愛過我嗎

The way that I loved you?

就像是我愛你的那樣

This negativity

這麼消極的話

Keeps me feeling blue

會讓我心情很憂鬱的

[Outro]

Doo, doo, doo-doo, doo

Doo, doo, doo-doo, doo

Doo, doo, doo-doo, doo

註1:此句使用Lil Tjay專輯-True To Myself裡的"F.N"

"Grrr, pow, I'ma skip town, see my wrist drown"

註2:此句使用電影自殺突擊隊裡的主題曲標題"Sucker for pain"