歌曲簡介

 

發行時間： 2016 年

作詞/作曲：TellingBeatzz/ Frank Parnell 

演出者：Lucidious/Josh Woods

收錄專輯：Torn Between Pages, Vol 1: Make It Out Alive

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[Verse 1: Lucidious]

What if I told you that I didn't feel good enough and I'm broken

如果我跟你說我不舒服到接近面臨崩潰

 

What if I said that I'm losin' my faith and been struggling with coping

如果我跟你說我正在對抗著正在失去信仰的自我

 

Been stuck for a while

我身陷其中

 

When I look at the clock man I feel like it's frozen

我望向時鐘，感覺到時間停滯不前

 

Then again time is just flying too quick

接著時間又重新飛逝

 

And I'm losing devotion

我失去了忠誠的心

 

Truth is I feel no emotion

事實上我早已沒有了情感

 

Bottled it up and all I feel is rage

我把憤怒掩飾了起來

 

And I would be lying if I looked at you and said I'm not afraid

當我看向你，我會騙你說我並不害怕

 

What if I never get through this shit

如果我永遠無法度過這個難關的話要怎麼辦

 

What do I do if I can't find my way

如果我找不到我未來的方向要怎麼辦

 

And I know that my father has been counting on me to carry our name

我知道我的父親希望我繼承我們的名子

 

Speakin' of him and I got to be honest

我需要誠實的對待我的父親

 

We ain't really speakin' these days

但我們這幾天都沒有講到話

 

I've been scared that I won't get to know him before the day he fades away

我很害怕在他過世之前都無法真正地了解他

 

My family fought a lot when I was growin' up

在我成長中我的父母一直在爭吵

 

What can I say? (What can I say?)

但我能說甚麼?(我能說甚麼?)

 

What can I say?

我能說甚麼?

 

By fightin', there ain't really nothin' to gain

只會吵架，他們也不會有甚麼收穫

 

[Pre-Chorus: Lucidious]

I know that the sun is out there somewhere

我知道外面存在著希望

 

But I've been livin' in rain

但我生活在憂鬱之中

 

Can we quit playin' games

我們可不可以別再玩這個遊戲了

 

I'm standin' right here and I'm ready to change

我站在這裡我準備好要改變了

 

And Mama I promise to give you the world if I make it to fame

媽媽我保證當我成名了我會給你整個世界

 

Put you both on a stage and make it so everyone's screamin' your name

我會讓你們登上舞台上讓大家讓大家歌頌你們的名字

 

[Chorus: Josh Woods]

In times like this I see your face

每當我看見你的臉時

 

Wish you didn't leave this place

都望你別離開這裡

 

Searchin' for the reason why

尋找著你離開的緣由

 

So take a moment of silence, goodbye

所以永別了，安息吧

 

[Verse 2: Lucidious]

Give me a second

給我一點間

 

I wanna say something to my little brother

我想要對我的弟弟說些甚麼

 

When you get older, your father is not gonna be with your mother

當你長大後，你的父親不再會和你母親再一起

 

I'm 23 years older than you, I know it's kinda confusing

我比你大23歲，我知道這令人困擾

 

Forget all the bullies that make fun of you, it's just for their amusement

忘記所有以霸凌你為快樂的人們，這只是他們的娛樂

 

Let go of negative, seek out the light

放下所有負面情緒，迎接光明的未來

 

Develop yourself, you should journal and write

增進自己，你應該去旅遊並記錄一切

 

Speak with integrity, treat women right

說話正值，善待女性

 

And you don't gotta drink every typical night

然後你就不會每天晚上都在喝酒

 

Being popular really ain't everythin'

名聲並不代表著一切

 

Nah don't give into that hype

不要屈服於那些炒作

 

And it's okay to forgive the people that hurt you

是時候原諒那些傷害過你的人

 

But don't give in twice

但不要給他們第二次機會

 

And to each of my sisters

還有我所有的姊妹

 

I know we been drifted, our parents divorced

我知道我們迷茫過，父母離婚

 

We all moved away, and the family shifted

我們都搬離了家人

 

Yeah we visit on Christmas

對，我們在聖誕節拜訪

 

But even the holidays' different

但即使是別的假期

 

Got to make something out of this gift that God has graciously gifted

也要從上帝那慷慨地賦予你的禮物當中獲得一點收穫

 

[Pre-Chorus: Lucidious]

I know that the sun is out there somewhere

我知道外面存在著希望

 

But I've been livin' in rain

但我生活在憂鬱之中

 

Can we quit playin' games

我們可不可以別再玩這個遊戲了

 

I'm standin' right here and I'm ready to change

我站在這裡我準備好要改變了

 

And Mama I promise to give you the world if I make it to fame

媽媽我保證當我成名了我會給你整個世界

 

Put you both on a stage and make it so everyone's screamin' your name

我會讓你們登上舞台上讓大家歌頌你們的名字

 

[Chorus: Josh Woods]

In times like this I see your face

每當我看見你的臉時

 

Wish you didn't leave this place

都望你別離開這裡

 

Searchin' for the reason why

尋找著你離開的緣由

 

So take a moment of silence, goodbye

所以永別了，安息吧

 

[Josh Woods]

Oh man, Lucid. Where do I even start? Your music, it's amazing.註1

喔天啊，Lucid.我該從哪裡開始?你的音樂真的太棒了?

 

It's like you really believe in what you're after.In my opinion

這看起來就像是你親身經歷般，在我的看法裡

 

It's some of the best, the best, music out there. Keep it up TJ

這就是最、最、最棒的音樂了，保持下去TJ

 

[Verse 3: Lucidious]

Give me a second I owe an apology to a few people

給我幾秒鐘，我要去和一些人說聲抱歉

 

I regret a few things and I made some mistakes when I gave into evil

我原諒他們一些事情但我對他們做了些不好的事情

 

To all my exes I'm sorry I know I was often deceitful

我要對我所有的前任說聲抱歉，我知道我常常欺騙妳們

 

But after Veronica cheated, I gave up and didn't treat future girls equal

但在Veronica 出軌後，我放棄平等地對待我未來的女人

 

I'm sorry to all that I pushed away when I fell deep in depression

我很抱歉當我身陷憂鬱時我推開了所有的事物

 

I never gave enough attention to people I love so I just started ruinin' friendships

我無法給予足夠的專情給我所愛的人所以我開始破壞我們之間的友情

 

I guess that I taken the easy way out by rapping confessions

我猜想用說唱來懺悔是最簡單的方式

 

This is a passion of mine and the only way that I can deal with my stresses

這是我的興趣，也是我唯一釋放壓力的方法

 

And I get emotional every time I stop and think about Taylor

每當我想起Taylor時，我情緒就會產生波動

 

Still can't believe that you took your own life away just to get rid of these haters

我仍然無法相信你為了擺脫那些霸凌者而結束自己的生命

 

I just hope that you found some peace and serenity in your decision

我現在只希望你在你的決定中找到了屬於你的和平且寧靜的生活

 

No one knew what you were going through

沒有人知道你經歷了甚麼

 

Then again maybe we just didn't listen

但也有可能是我們沒有傾聽你的聲音

 

To my granny, I wish that I said goodbye before the day that you left

致我的奶奶，我希望我可以在您離開我們的當天和您說聲再見

 

Not telling you how much I love you is something that I still regret

沒有告訴您我也多愛您是我至今還很後悔的一事

 

But I know you're in heaven and that it's all okay

但我知道您在天堂那過得很好

 

One day I'll be with you, and all my fans will be screamin' my name

總有一天我會和您在那邊，然後我所有的粉絲將會歌頌我的名字

 

[Outro]

This song is dedicated to Taylor Eller. We love you. And may you rest in peace註2

這首歌獻給Taylor Eller.我們愛你，並願你安詳

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註1:這段話為粉絲寫給他的一段，影射出旁人只看出Lucid光鮮亮麗的一面，卻無法看到Lucid所困擾的事情

註2:Taylor Eller是Lucidious的摯友，Taylor Eller於2015/12/30用手槍自殺，當時僅為24歲。Lucidious在採訪時說:無論他在音樂上做甚麼都還遠遠地不夠，我們必須更關注憂鬱及自殺這塊議題，以及如何去幫助他們，尤其是年輕族群的自殺。所以Lucidious決定製作此系列的歌來紀念Taylor Eller以及讓更多人來關注此議題